| I live in Kansas...Yes, me. Of all the places I could be right now I'm in Kansas. It's all right. Not the first place I would have choosen, but it was already done when I came into the picture. We're living in an ok little apartment. Two bedrooms, room enough for...most...of my stuff. Don't know what he's going to do with all of his. Now I guess I need to figure out what to do with myself. I quit my job, my very, very good job to come be out here. I don't resent him for it. I miss my work, and I miss my friends (in and out of work) but I'm not crying over it every second. I need to find a job. Finding one on post seems next to impossible. I don't have the experience to do what I want to do. I also want to finish school, that's something I need to figure out soon. It's not that I don't enjoy being able to do pretty much what I want when I want and not have to worry about being late for work or what I'm going to miss out on. i just feel at a loss, I usually take care of myself and can contribute to the house. Right now I feel useless and I don't like it. I'm going to fill out applications today. Sam is off riding his motorcyle, so I'm pretty much on my own today. No big deal. I need to write a resume too. Hopefully that's something I can get started today and finish tomorrow. Well, I can get a regular resume done, those ones for federal jobs are a pain in the ass and HUGE! they end up being about 7 or 8 pages long by the time they are done. Ideally I would get a monday thru Friday job on post so I can see my husband once in awhile, but the odds of that happening are small. We'll see. As of right now...I guess I'm just going to sit here and keep avoiding things for a little while. I'm really good at that. I find things to do that have nothing to do with looking for a job or going to school. I need to wash dished, clean the bathroom, do laundry, figure out where to put clothes, so on and so on..it doesn't end. Once I get all unpacked and have everything in it's right place it'll be easier to deal with but right now I don't have any shelves or closet space, thanks to my wonderful husband who has taken over all the extra closet space. No big deal, he'll get his stuff squared away soon enough. Well I guess I better go start my day...Finally at one in the afternoon. |
